I'm still kind of amazed that I first started reading fic and doing fandomy things in like seventh grade. I'm a senior now. I don't know how I'm going to feel when I'm graduating college instead of high school. A lot of what I used to follow I don't really anymore though. I still read some stuff from Inuyasha, but not a lot. I kind of want to rejoin that fandom and write all sorts of sesskag stuff, but at the same time it's been so long since I was really active that I don't really care any more.
I should not be feeling all sorts of wistful and stuff when I'm eighteen D:
I can't believe he's been gone for almost three months. I mean, on one hand, it feels like he's been dead for ages, but on the other, it still seems like if I turn around he'll be here, on Mom's bed, or whining for attention, or something.
Mom said she saw two kittens for sale at Clark's yesterday, and she wanted them so badly. I kind of wish she had bought one (or both) of them. After thirteen years, it just feels like I need two cats. But that won't be happening until I'm on my own.
Prom was last week! I looked super pretty :) Everyone loved my hair. Logan was there, and it was his birthday, so the track people got him a Build-a-Bear. I got the cutest picture of him with it. I kind of wished I had asked him to go, but at the same time we don't know each that well, so it might have been weird. Maybe next year...
I have to go shopping tomorrow; I need to find school and hot weather appropriate clothing to wear which is like trying to find the Holy Grail.
Mrs. Megehee is letting us go out during her class to "read" which is nice. She cares about as much as we do now that the AP exam is over. The only thing we have to do is the movie (which people are being bitches over) and, technically, lit circles. Technically because they're not graded or anything. I'm reading The Picture of Dorian Gray, although I think I'm going to sparknotes the rest of it. It sounded good, and I loved The Importance of Being Earnest, but this isn't really doing it for me. Josh is the only person I'm reading it with, so it doesn't really matter.
So, on the movie. Jen, Meghan, Alycia, and Emily are totally taking it over. Eli is to some extent but not as much. But seriously, this is a class project, and we're AP. I understand that you want a good grade and you're in drama, but stop. Just stop. No we're not going to just trust you with the script. Also don't get bitchy when you're asked if you can skip the NHS conference. We don't have that much time to film, and you're all major parts of it. You can ask the seniors (who you're not letting have big roles) to skip Senior Skip Day, so we can ask if there's anyway for you to do the same. Also, I don't think Inception is really working as our movie, but it's too late now. It's kind of difficult to do and really short. I did have another idea for a cheesy scifi flick, but that would be even harder. Although I might still write the script for it. But I love you all (except for Jen, and Meghan at times), but you're being bitches. Sarah did have an idea to put Jen's psycho bitch face in the bloopers, so she could realize what a bitch she's being, but she wouldn't get it. This is a tragdey, but Jen ain't no tragic hero.
Some quick work related things:
Yesterday some guy came in to ask where New Rye was and I knew! Yay increased sense of direction!
Cat continues to be stupid. Although when she shows up I like her better than Josh because she's fun to talk with at least, but he's just an asshole most of the time.
We have a new girl, Danielle (who I've gone to school with since forever, but don't really know, so it's all just kind of awkward). She's about as a bad as Cat (although she can learn), but lacks potential gossip buddy status. But hopefully she'll be fired soon because she was half an hour late on Friday and high when she did show up.
Also, I'd better be getting my Tuesday night shift back. I just got it, and don't want to loose it. Screw the college kids, I'm here all year, and I need money.
So yeah, still hate work, but at least school's almost over. All of the summer reading choices suck this year though, but I've got two I think I can deal with. Denslow's probably leaving though :( At least there's no driver's ed this summer.
When we got him back from the vet's on Tuesday it seemed like everything would be okay. They said that as long as we got food into him and kept giving him the steroids, that he would get better. But he didn't want to. He just gave up.
I knew we'd have to put him down eventually, but it seemed like we would have time. I keep wondering if maybe we could have done something more. Not have had him the surgery. Gone to the vet sooner. Feed him more. Paid more attention to him. Something. Storm was supposed to be a stubborn bastard. He wasn't supposed to give up.
When I heard Mom go to Jake's door this morning and say his name, I knew that if she came to mine, he was gone. And she did.
Storm's been with me since I was four. That's thirteen years. He's fallen out of windows, been pulled out of windows by fishers, and had his back legs out of joint for years. Three years ago he go a benign tumor in his mouth that apparently spread. Benign tumors shouldn't have killed him, but they messed with his blood, and he stopped fighting. It feels so weird without him; for the majority of my life he's been here and now he's just gone. I'm glad at least he was able to spent his last day at home, and in the spring we are going to bury his ashes out back, that's better than what Jack got.
Callie's been with me for most of the day; I guess she's been mourning her brother in her own way.
August 1997-3 March 2011
Seriously? Seriously? The one day I want off, the one day I expect off I don't get. Ashley, Jeremy, and Kara got their birthdays off without asking and I got it off last year. This had better be a mistake or I had better find someone to switch with or I might just call out. I don't know if this is some stupid revenge shit for asking for Christmas Eve off or what but it's not fucking cool.
I'm so sick of this job it's not even funny. I've had a headache since I don't know when and I'm seriously this close to quitting.
Is one fucking day to myself so I can relax that hard to get?
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But seriously, some downtime would be amazing, I'm getting so many headaches right now it's not even funny.
My aunt has cancer. What am I going to do?
I wish I could go back to squeeing over Logan, not be left feeling guilty over being happy that this isn't my mom. I mean, how do Erin and Kylee feel?
I just wish this could be over, or better yet, a dream.
It still hasn't really sunk in, but it still hurts.
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